"I’ll screw up. I’ll push you away if we were getting too close. I won’t trust you until you’ve proven yourself. I get hurt easily and take a lot of things personally. But I’ll love you with everything I have and if that isn’t enough, then I’m not worth it."
Then I woke up. Realized then it was only a dream and I knew it was time to get back to reality.
I really miss you. I miss the way you hold me. The way you speak. The way you smile. The way you gaze. The way you kiss me. I miss having you around me.
I miss everything about you. I miss going to your favorite place eating your favorite food. Listening to your favorite band, singing your favorite song, watching football matches over face-time. I miss the way you annoy and worry crap out of me by playing and running around even after having your ankle sprained and your knees cracked. I miss that.
I miss you fighting with me over big or small things. I miss your random jokes and you fooling around, how you never fail to make me smile despite having a bad day yourself. How you'd do anything to make me happy. And you really did make me the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. I was your princess and you were my prince charming.
You know, after everything, if we turn the clock back to the time where you asked me to be yours, I’d still say yes. You’ve made me a better and stronger person. You’ve helped me see things I couldn’t in the past. And I thank you for that. For everything you’ve done. For being here. For tolerating my insecurities. My mood swings. My crap. I'm not the easiest person to love and you still did.
But thank you, too, for loving me enough to let me go. For the better. For the good. Change is sometimes good. And how we’ve changed as a person, how the dynamics have changed is good too, i guess. Thank you for loving me the way you do. Thank you for the last date we had. Thank you for all the memories. Thank you for loving and understanding and staying with me when my world left me.