Have you ever had days where you are left sitting there questioning every decision you ever made? Today was one of those days for me. Today I was left feeling like I've been left tied to a bed cut open with my guts spilling out. Filled with regret, sadness, and heartache.
Reality hit me far worse than a wrecking ball. I don't and won't get to see the people that walked through one of the toughest period of my life every single day anymore. I won't get to waltz into their rooms and have mini chats anymore. I won't get to "steal" tea anymore.
Where did it all go wrong? I have so many things to say but I can't find the right words to put it, so here's a little something that hopefully summarises the pre quarter-life crisis panic attack I'm having at the moment -
If I never walked away
How different would things be
I made a grave mistake
I should have been more patient
Now I have to clean this mess
Why did I get myself in this situation
But it's too late for regrets
I have to bear the consequences
Learn to grin and bear it
This has taught me a lesson
I shouldn't be so brash so stupid
Where do I go from here
I am defeated
I wish I could just disappear
My strength is depleted
Need to get this off my chest
I really wish I never left